What a journey I’ve been on of late… since leaving the UK, just over a year ago, spending time in Australia with my family, then at John of God in Brazil and now living in St Lucia. The moving process was an experience in itself… so much letting go, such a need to trust, to trust my instincts, to trust what I know, to trust what I’m being shown.
As I write this post, which was to be about a totally different topic, I realise that trust IS to be the topic. After all this has been and will continue to be a journey of trust… isn’t all of life a journey of trust? Every step of the way, with every change, every movement forward, every step in letting go, my level of trust has deepened. I didn’t realise that I didn’t fully trust, I thought I was mostly carefree (yet very sensible and followed my instincts beautifully, ha! To an extent that was true but at times some deep old conditioning would come up and I’d question my instincts, take time to take action, or not take action at all. I’d hold on to certain possessions or people in my life as well. My guides and higher self must have been getting kind of frustrated (in a loving way) with all of that!
For me, the deep conditioning that would sometimes stop me from moving forward were things like a fear of not having the abundance needed to do what I need to do, bottom line to not have the money I need to survive. Also a fear of being persecuted still came up from time to time. Both things that I had been working on for some time and I’d been moving ahead in leaps and bounds, but of course with these big things, it’s usually a bit-by-bit process. I also had a fear in romantic relationships that if I let go of someone I loved (because the relationship didn’t serve me), then that would be it. Not so much a fear of being alone but possibly a fear of loss (that old chestnut) combined with my never ending belief that people can and will change (and they can!), combined to create a situation of ‘stuck’.
Looking back, I’m patting myself on the back for making the changes, for trusting and for taking some big leaps.I’m now in a new relationship, the most amazing relationship with a beautiful being and we’re expecting a baby in just a few weeks. Having a child is something I’ve craved for my whole life but of course this timing is perfect. I live on a Caribbean island, I have some amazing work ahead. And every step of the way I’ve been shown what to do next, what’s needed, and I’ve always been provided for in some way… not always in the way I would have expected or liked but in a way that I needed in order to be here, to shift more stuff and to do the work I’ve been called to do. Either way I’ve survived, in fact I’ve thrived and I trust that more and more, and as I trust more deeply, I will thrive even more.
So where does a lack of trust come from?
We are complex beings who have been through so many experiences in this life and in previous lives, some of which have shown us that we shouldn’t trust, have shown us that we’re not safe. But these are all experiences that we needed to go through in order for the soul to grow. And they’re all experiences that we asked for willingly. And where a lesson hasn’t been completed or an energy hasn’t healed in a previous life or even earlier in this life, the energy carries forward so that it can then be healed or the lesson completed. The school house for the soul is never ending with no graduation, just end of term celebrations as we make a completion, as our soul rejoices and the angels sing.
How to build trust…
It’s easy really. Just hand everything over to God. That’s one thing I’ve learnt, I’ve learnt that God, The Universe, in Buddha, the highest of energies know what’s best for me, so why not hand it all over? After all I’m part of Gods magnificent team, I’m here as an emanation of God, so why would I go against that. And it’s not about handing power over to an outside being, I am God, you are God, we are God. The God I refer to is as I said the highest energy, and that includes the God part of us. We too have a higher knowing, and the mind, conditioning and fears can mess with that big time.
So the next time you feel stuck and don’t know what to do, just hand the situation over to God and truly let go. And you might be surprised at what takes place. You may well receive the most amazing guidance, you might have lightbulb moments, you might see an unavoidable sign, you might find that things turn up at the perfect time. And of course you then need to take action, embrace wholeheartedly!
Also, clearing the blockages that might be holding you back works wonders. If you feel fearful, address those fears, you might know where those fears originated, you might not. Either way connect with them and maybe get some help to clear them if needed. If you feel angry, send forgiveness and love to the person or situation you feel angry with (especially if it’s you that you’re angry toward). If you feel guilty or unworthy, send yourself buckets of love and forgiveness.
The right place at the right time…
Over the years I’ve cleared and healed so much stuff! And I’ve been fortunate in my work to assist others on their healing journey. And this process continues for all of us. Being here in St Lucia has resulted in a super dooper fast track. I feel like someone’s pushed the turbo charge button! Each day something new (or should I say very old) comes up to clear, and it’s often it seems healing from the times of Atlantis, way, way back. More about that in another post but for now, just to say that things will come up at the perfect time, when we are ready for them, when we’re ready to look that demon in the face and to clear or cry it out.
So if something icky comes up, trust! Trust that you can handle it, trust that you are ready to clear it. Trust that you are supported and that the timing is perfect. And give thanks for the gift… the opportunity to heal something big. It might be difficult initially but you’ll feel so much better for it!